After
I finally have some time to write here. I want to update this blog more often since I'm pretty into writing in general, but then again when it comes to life, motivation & other stuff; I'm sure you know it.
A lot of things have been happening actually. I met a lot of people, cut some other off, and even blocked my now ex-groomer; pretty huge! My friends were incredibly supportive about it, infact they were the ones who encouraged me to do so. I don't think I would have without them. My groomer was a woman so I would tend to assume that it wasn't as bad as people made it out to be, but looking back, our relationship was kind-of-very fucked up. She had been in love with me since I was, fourteen? Thirteen? She said so herself recently -> she's also twenty-one. I had known her for six years, so I was a little reluctant to get rid of her considering I suck at keeping relationships usually. So it felt like abandonning something huge.
In the end, I know that it was for the better, and I feel free. I'd like to believe that I wasn't as affected as my friends thought I initially was, since I felt like I was the one leading her on this entire time if anything by just not caring about her feelings for me and constantly ignoring them, which is typically my response to most stuff actually. It's a whatever matter now. Still a positive thing I found worth mentioning. ♡
I just came back from a three day long trip! And I am unbelievably spent considering I haven't slept within the last two days. I spent my time arguing with 3/4 of the boat's crew lol. Other than that, it went great, and I'm home with a few Rentry comms to finish up. I finally found out how to recolor gifs & pixels properly using Photopea so that's pretty cool.
I'll see if I even remember to post this entry. Gosh I hope. Hello future me!
(Future me note: I did, infact, forget to post this. This is a day late.)